Vanessa Woon

I know you miss me :)

2010-11-24T20:51:00.003+08:00

hey people!

it's has been a loooonnnggg time since i've blogged.

it feels good to be back blogging though jessica dont really like me blogging.

haha. so how was your holiday?

i heard that many people had got themselves job. gah and i still havent found one. any recommendations? do leave a comment if you came across any job vacancies.

i dont really have anything to share since everyday is just another carefree day. haha.

i'll update soon!

PS: if you wanna have some fun or wanna find someone to chat with, do leave me a comment!

Tiring is the only word

2010-08-03T20:30:00.003+08:00

Hey people,
Haha I doubt I have anyone out there reading my blog since I've declared that I will stop blogging a few months ago. Well, that's good so now I'm able to treat this like a private journal? Haha.

I hope everyone is doing well. My life had been like a roller coaster. It's crazy yet there is some fun aspects in it that made you wanted to have a few more rides. Haha. O levels. O levels. The day is coming closer and somehow I can sense danger. That's probably my instinct to tell me to do something to protect myself from the danger ahead. I've been trying to study and I realized studying can be quite interesting at times but could be so freaking tedious. It's not the time I spent studying that Made me feel really tired but the effort I need to put it is just taking a toll on me. Gahhh. I wish all this can end soon yet I dread the day that I need to face one of my biggest fears - O LEVELS

Wish me luck people:) I gotta study for chemistry now. Bye :)

HIATUS

2010-06-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

HEY PEOPLE, I WILL BE ON HIATUS TILL THE O LEVELS ARE OVER!
SEE YA IN NOVEMEBER!

The Love In Your Eyes

2010-06-10T20:45:00.005+08:00

i walked in the crowds.
chilling eyes wandering around.
i pulled my coat closer,
feeling like an outsider.

my face was hardening
and my body trembling.
i leaned against a wall,
i felt cold and small.

my face was hot and wet,
wishing we had never met.
longing for the familiar warmth.
looking for the familiar eyes.

I looked down at the snow.
then, the pair of sneakers stopped.
i looked up.
i saw the eyes of warmth.

the blue eyes that pierce through my heart,
the blue eyes with warmth,
the blue eyes with love,
the blue eyes that always know.

nothing was said.
a kiss was more than enough.
his arms around my waist,
the love that always stay.

By V. Woon

bloody chinese exam

2010-05-30T19:46:00.005+08:00

hey people, i think im a total piece of shit now.
im having my chinese o level tomorrow and yet, i feel..
i feel.. i feel.. i feel like tomorrow is my bloody holiday.
so now what? what the hell is wrong with me?
i have millions of butterflies in my stomach when im sitting for my prelims and when it's time for o level, im as calm as a sane?
i havent even bother to read my chinese notes or do some revision for the past two days.
now, im using my bloody laptop.
oh great. i wonder how i will fare for tomorrow's paper.
may god be mercy.

people, do pray for me because i think i need it. haha.
what a day. anyway, i wish all of you who are taking the o level paper all the best.
so, wish me some luck too!
byeeeeeee :)

I miss everything about you

2010-05-30T11:31:00.001+08:00

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm alone with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

♥

holiday, when?

2010-05-29T12:12:00.004+08:00

hey people,
so how are your weekend and the public holiday you had?
sad to say that our holiday have not officially started yet. ya right, officially.

after that very sucky thursday, i grieved over my results for one day which was yesterday.
thursday was one of the worse and suckiest day i ever had in my life.
anyway, talking about results. i dont know what to say.
all i can say is my L1R5 got a fantastic 26. yeah, fuck 26.
my results has hit the record low of my life, that it was the lousiest of all. clap for me, people.

never mind, im trying to be positive. im going to work hard. yes people, dont give that skeptic looks, i MEAN it this time.
haha.

apparently, i dont really have anything to share.
so, good luck for our o level chinese on monday.

♥

Qiuxuan's Birthday Celebration

2010-05-17T21:08:00.010+08:00

heys people,
hopw you all are surving throught this getting-results-back period. haha.
well, im dying, get it?
i will not talk about it now. probably next week. in fact, i hope i will never talk about it. gah.
anyway, im updating about qiuxuan's birthday celebration on Saturday.
sorry for the late update though. was kinda lazy even though exams were over. haha.
there's quite a number of pictures :)

first, we went to her house to give her a suprise! here, we were lighting up the candles.

the birthday cake! :D anyway, it was delicious!
vj holding the cake waiting for qiuxuan to open the door.
surprised look on birthday girl's face! haha.

hanging around at qiuxuan's house. teresa took this cos we had nothing to do anyway. haha.
the birthday girl! :D
hmm, teresa took this cos vj was standing beside a waterfall-like thing. get the joke here?

secondly, we took qiuxuan to plaza sing to make a bear. well, a monkey.
stuffffffing cotttttoooon.
here, the salesman was teaching qiuxuan to put the heart into the monkey. so where's the aorta?
cleaning the monkey.

the shoes are so cute isnt it?

"where best friends are made" i think im made there. hmmmm..
finally, kimmy xuan was born! cute eh?
qiuxuan was registering kimmy.
while waiting, we decided to camwhore :)

i know my smile looks weird cos i cant smile properly. i dont know why! damn braces!
LOVE THE BADMINTON GIRLS!

apparently, vj forced me to take this picture. well, it's obvious right? haha.

♥

friday is the best, agree?

2010-05-14T15:05:00.003+08:00

heys people!
examinations are over! FINALLY. i felt that i was released from the clutches of the monsters.
i lie down on my bed today, not wanting to wake up because i love the feeling of wasting my time in bed. haha. wasting time is a luxury.

the bad thing is,i still need to go back to school tomorrow for chemistry lesson.
to look on a positive side, mrs whelan said that she is going to give back our papers tomorrow!
oh my god. i am really anticipating that.
it's not that i am confident to score in my chemistry but i really want to know where's my standard now so that i can work on it during my june holiday.

okay enough about school. so what are you doing today?
i wanna catch a movie but my mum is going to Hong Kong later in the evening.
gah, my mum is such an ass. i wanna go overseas too!
she said she's going to bring me to the saloon for a haircut today and yet, she's slacking in her room now. mum is always mum. haha.

hmmm, due to my exams lately, i dont really have much to share. i shall update more next time.
haha. and oh, WATCH THOMAS CUP THIS EVENING! CHINA VERSUS MALAYSIA!
MALAYSIA IS GOING TO WIN!(i hope so!)

MALAYSIA GOOOOOOOO!

♥

Please don't waste my time time time time time

2010-05-06T19:24:00.001+08:00

a song a day keeps the boredom away

♥

under construction

2010-05-04T18:39:00.001+08:00

heys people,
my blog is under some sort of construction.
it will most likely be done after the prelims :)

Life goes on,right?

2010-05-02T15:29:00.012+08:00

im so bored that i decided to arrange my clothes according to colours. haha. cool huh?
im an ardent fan of nicholas sparks!

im not using this powder but it looks so freaking vintage and it only cost me RM3.
my sister wrote this to encourage me :D
DR MARTENS! anyone wanna buy the boots for me?

BIOOOOOOOOOLOGYYYYYY :(

actually i have more ticks. lols. at least i have done about 3 or 4 chapters. LOLS!

this is a miniature of tobasco! cute eh? i got it for free from Domino :)

my pet dog, lucky!

hey guys,

hope you like the photos cos im compensating you for the time that im on hiatus for this few weeks.

im really too busy to update and probably too lazy. haha.

prelim is really taking a toll on me. it is really tough. yeah, dont you dare remind me bout my o levels.

i really do wish i can do well for this prelim. i dont know why but i just hope i can do well to give me a boost of confidence. haha. yeah, i do need some encouragement sometimes.

anyway, i hope all of you have been doing fine :)

so, i managed to catch a movie just now at around 730pm. i watched Ip Man.

IT WAS A FREAKING GOOD MOVIE.

i like it because there's actually history value in it and also, the actors and actresses were great.

huang xiaoming was WOW :D

okay back to the movie, well i thought all chinese should watch it.

the movie talked about a wonderful chinese kungfu master called Ye Wen. He created history that make chinese proud of him and let those damn westerners know that chinese are not weaklings.

he was the master of Bruce Lee, cool huh? lols. i was pretty surprised to know that he was the master of bruce lee. never mind bout that. the important thing is, his legacy still continue, even till now.

i got pretty emotional watching this movie cause of the damn westerners in the movie. lols.

yeah, i like western countries and their people but you got to see those westerners in the movie!

you will wish to just punch them on the face and give them that middle finger of yours.

haha. another thing i had to say after watching this movie is i am proud to be a chinese.

well, im not saying i love china and blah blah blah. im not going into that patriotic stuff here.

the thing i wanna say is i have never been ashamed of my race. never.

im totally proudy to be a malaysian chinese. haha.

a friend once told me that chinese is the ugliest looking of all.

the westerners have sharp facial features. the japanese have fair and smooth skin. the indians have long eyelashes and sharp features. the list goes on. she asked me," what about chinese?"

i just answered, " well, i think we are beautiful in our own way and duh, im proud to be a chinese. you should too."

so people, plese be proud of your race. there's nothing wrong being a chinese or malay or indian.

it is just who you are.

god decide it for you for a reason. accept it and accept it graciously :)

one last thing, damn those fucking idiots who look down on others heritage. you know what? just kick them in the ass if you ever see them.

haha. oh, i wanna watch Iron Man 2 too! anyone? haha.

i gotta go now.

i needa do some biology notes. hmmm, life still sucks. gahhh.

all the best people.

by the way, i think i will be on hiatus until prelim is over. see ya soon!

♥

Adam Lambert Week

2010-04-04T14:05:00.006+08:00

heys people,
from the look of my post title, i think you know what i mean.
yep, adam lambert is my new idol.
i dont care if he's a gay or he behaves like one. the only think i care is he can sing and partly, he is hot. oh my god.
this proves that handsome guys are mostly gays. damn it.

so how's your week? sorry i havent been updating because im really lazy but also, i have a really busy o level schedule.
anyway, i spent my weekend doing some of my homework and watching videos!
i just realise how interesting and important youtube.com is.
i watched adam lambert's videos, michael jackson(yeah, im still crazy bout him) and justin bieber!
justin bieber is defnitely a heartthrob. oh my god. the good thing is he's only 16 which make my daydreams more realistic. i hope you get the meaning here. if you dont, forget bout it. haha.

i dont really have anything interesting to share. everyday is alsmost the same. doing homework, worrying bout o lvls and revision blah blah blah. so i shall spice my life up with some cool videos :)

once upon a time, i didnt give a damn

♥

March Holiday 2010

2010-03-20T17:46:00.016+08:00

♥

once broken, it's considered gone

2010-03-10T21:37:00.004+08:00

once broken, it's considered gone.

the scar will always be there no matter how hard you try to fix it.

you choose this,

then bear the consequences.

heys people,

this week was definitely a dramatic week.

i have friends who turned against each other.

i have tests to study on.

i received tests that i failed.

the list goes on.

what bother me the most is the internal conficts within my clique of friends.

do 16 years old still quarrel over a mere word? find it ludicrous eh?

i dont know but what i know is since you all choose to break the relationship then just get on with your damn life and stop talking bout it.

if not, get back to what we used to be.

you choose, everyone has a right to choose but the outcome, you dont.

do remember that.

stop giving me explanations, excuses, assumptions and inferences.

im sick of it. im sick of always being in the middle one trying to make things peaceful.

hello, i have my own problems.oh my god.

im not complaining but i always tried to solve the problems that i created.

face the damn reality.

im always willing to help if you all need any of my concern and care. or any other way that can make things go well again. really, i mean it.

think about it. is it worth it? is your friendship really that vulnerable? do you still consider a friendship?

there are friends who come and go.

there are also friends who come and stay.

of course, there are friends who never come back.

think and choose. what kind of friendship do you want to have at the end of this year, our final year in our secondary school education.

trust me, you will regret it.

im in a kinda bad mood today which is why im blogging on a weekday.

there's a trigo test tomorrow which really bothers me. trigo is like alien? haha.

i do hope i can pass tomorrow's test.

anyway people, no matter what happened, life goes on.

so why not make it a better and happier one?

♥

PS: i miss my dad.

i hate monday

2010-03-07T21:21:00.002+08:00

Monday sucks.

a crazy week and a crazy friday

2010-02-28T01:31:00.003+08:00

hey guys,
how's life?

last week had been a really busy week.
there were tests and preparation for sports day.
let's skip the tests part and talk about sports day.
the preparation for sports day was really tiring and i appreciate those who had volunteered and helped out.
thanks a lot! it wouldnt be a success without your help :)

so, sports day was on last friday.
unfortunately, jessica was not with us and there's no one who could set the atmosphere right and got everyone hyped up.
nevertheless, i still have guojian, xinyi, valerie,peiying etc.
well, im really glad that the girls was cooperating with me and i can see that they did their best to our class cheer.
as for the boys, they had once again proved to be a disappointment.
i dont understand why are they so freaking scared of the heat when the girls are exposing to the sun and our runners sitting right under the sun.
im sorry to say this, but you know what? 4crusaders boys, please act like someone with balls.
even the girls dont give a damn bout the heat, they only applied sun block. worse, girls are supposed to be vain and afraid of being tanned. shame on you, boys.
well, im not saying all boys. at least, jiajing and sam had diligently hold on to our banner.

never mind about those losers, let me tell you all about my class's runners.
they were great!
seriously, winning and losing really doesnt matter to me.
this is not supposed to be some form of standard line that everyone always said. this are my hearftfelt words.
im already very happy when they told me they are participating in the races :)
i almost cried when i was cheering for them.
i dont know why but when i saw them run, you can really see that they are really trying their very best.
they just want to reach the destination before others.
they just want to win that race for the class.
they just dont want to disappoint us.
i dont know how to describe in words but they really put in a lot of effort trying to win.
yet, our class losers were just sitting in the shade chatting bout some bullshit.
of course, the girls was screaming their lungs out for the runners.
somehow, a part of me just feel guility for not having the ability to cheer for them louder.

anyway, sports day was overall a fun day with my classmates.
i've get to know more about some of my classmates :)
after i was dismissed, i met up with beverly at sembawang.
we went to sembawang shopping centre to do some shopping.
it was such a nice time to just spend money and laugh like a bitch with her.
sometimes our busy schedules just doesnt allow us to have some time together.
still, i miss talking to her and i love talking to her ♥

after the tiring shopping spree, thl called me to attend yong hao's house party.

i went and it was the noisiest and most crowded party i've ever been to.

those fire crackers and lion dances were dring me crazy.

worse still, i think there was more 100 people there.

gah. sounds terrible right?

haha. luckily, there was chunyeow, thl, nicole, alex, yeonsheng, my brother to play some card games. at least, we would not be bored.

actually, beverly went with me but due to different social circles, she was not with me during the party.

okay, back to the card games. thl, my brother and i successfully made alex drunk!

yeah!

the 3 of us definitely are able to cooperate to trick people like alex. haha!

after all the fun, i went back home.

the minute i touched my pillow, i fell into a deep slumber.

the minute i woke up, i realised that i still have tons of homework undone.

haha, blame reality.

anyway, i gotta go now.

have a nice weekend, people :)

♥

friends forever

2010-02-21T20:39:00.002+08:00

heys people,
how's y'all week?

i havent had anything exciting happened for the past one week but at least, im enlightened.
i was talking with Beverly on the phone last friday.
she told me about some of her 'friends' in her school.
somehow, after hearing her story, i feel blessed.

friends. i have many.
true friends. i can probably count it using both of my hands.
i realized that even though he or she may not be rich or nice-looking or clever but they may be the best listener in the world.
i realized that some people may be always with you but they may not be there when you truly need their help.
i realized that some people may seemed to know you very well but it turned out they dont.

i am glad to say that i have wonderful friends in my life.
they are able to tolerate my bad temper and my terrible mood swings.
one thing im 100% sure is that they will be there for me when i need them.
this is the first time i think i need to thank them.
i think i need to cherish them and i ought to tell them that i appreciate them.
i need not name them out because i think they know who they are.

some i have only known for a few years and some for maybe 8 or 10 years.
time doesnt matter. its the friendship that counts.

thank you, my friends.
i may appear to be nonchalant but i am not.
i know your prescence in my life and i know your place in my heart.
even if you dont talk to me often but somehow, i just know that you are that true friend.
we may not hang out often yet i can feel the bond between us.
this may sound really mushy but yeah, this are my heartfelt words.

so friends,
thank you
and

friends forever.

♥

school sucks

2010-02-17T19:18:00.002+08:00

heys people,
i hope you all are still alive and not killed by the boredom in school.

i hate school.
this have been something that i have not said for years.
i hate school. i seriously hate it.
i hate it because of those darn homework and tests.
why do i need to go to school? just for a damn certificate that will make sure i have money to spend later on in my life.
i have to learn stupid maths that has nothing got to do with my fabulous life.
i have teachers giving homework like as if its flyers.

i hate homework. i hate it .
i hate deadlines.
i dont find any meaning in going to school anymore.
i think i mentioned before that i dont like to have teamwork.
im sorry to tell you all that im a solo person.
i like to do things on my own.
i like to be in solitude. there's nothing wrong with that, i presume.
i dont need people to surround me everyday. in fact, i dont like to be surrounded by people.
people who dont understand the sentence: silence is gold, can be quite annoying.

god damn it. i still have a mountain of homework on my desk.
i dont want to go to school tomorrow!
i think i gotta go now.
yeah, to do those darn homework.

fuck school.

just a short post

2010-02-12T00:03:00.002+08:00

heys people,
sorry for the lack of updates lately. this is just a short post from me.
today isnt a very good day for me.
im really busy with the upcoming class event, CNY celebration.
jessica and i had to deal with ridiculous jokes and buying the necessary materials for our noticeboard decoration.
it had been a crazy day.
i hope tomorrow is going to be fun. hopefully, we are able to win one of the activities too.
haha.
anyway, i wish chinese a happy chinese new year.

i have to sleep now. gotta go.
i will try to update about school about the CNY celebration.
see ya!

Mad World

2010-02-07T20:00:00.002+08:00

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world ... world
Enlarge your world
Mad world

one song says it all

sweet sixteen!

2010-01-28T22:39:00.003+08:00

heys people,

thanks for the birthday wishes and presents today.

i really had a fun time in school. i was really surprised when i saw the cake.

thanks to all my friends who made my 16th birthday such a memorable one.

love,

vanessa woon sing yee♥

PS: my name is vanessa not vannessa.

i know my face looks some kind of weird but duh,

i have braces, its hard to smile! haha.

dinners and boring dinners and very boring dinners

2010-01-23T20:32:00.003+08:00

heys people,
how's your weekend?

yesterday, i atttended my family's annual dinner.
boring as usual. we waited for one and a half hour for the dishes to be served!
im glad to see my cousins and sisters. at least we are able to gossip and chat :)
apparently, we made quite a big fuss about english pronounciation.
haha. we dare not say that our english pronounciation are perfect but the accent of the emcee is really weird.
i think the emcee was the only entertaiment we had yesterday.
pictures of the dinner is with my sister so i didnt get to post it up here.
sorry for that. if i have the time, i may post it on my upcoming posts.

as for today, i had lunch with beverly at an italian restaurant.
the food is nice! haha. love the mushroom soup :D

tomorrow, im having a wedding dinner in the afternoon.
im actually quite reluctant to go cos' i rather do my homework at home.
argghhhhh.

oh, i received a call from sister just now.
it was about _____ wedding dinner.
seriously, i dont give a freaking damn about her 'freaking extravagant' wedding dinner.
its not like as if i cant wait to attend it so stop acting like a spoilt and ignorant girl, okay?
MONEY DOESNT MEAN EVERYTHING, GET IT?!
OH MY GOD.
isnt this a very simple theory and someone so 'clever' like you cannot understand eh?
*rolls my eyes*

LASTLY, ITS BEVERLY KOK'S BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!
HOPE YOU CAN HAVE A HAPPY BIRTHDAY BITCH :D BEST FRIENDS FOREVER! ♥

f irritated week

2010-01-19T22:09:00.004+08:00

life is ludicrous.

life has its up and downs.

and

life sucks.

The emptiness that kills

2010-01-17T18:42:00.005+08:00

Just when i thought everything is over.

Just when i thought everything is okay again.

Everything will crumble infront of me.

i will be left to face the emptiness i have.

i wish i can just go up to you and thrashed whatever to your face.

i wish i can destroyed anything that makes you happy.

i wish i can make you suffer.

i wish and i wish and i wish.

i cant and i cant and i cant.

why and why and why

what in the world have i walked into?

two weeks of school

2010-01-15T22:12:00.003+08:00

heys people.
i've been really busy for the past two weeks.
so how's school? everyone's doing well eh?

now, let me start from the first day of school.
school was pretty fun for the first week cos' its just a time for us to complete our holiday assigments and settle in school again.
i was given a responsibility in class which is the activity chairperson of my class. mr soong assigned guojian as my assistant. lols! im his superior!
i must say its pretty fun to plan events for my class.
as long my classmates is willing to participate, im willing to plan it for them :)

as for the second week, its quite a busy and tired one.
teachers have been stressing about the importance of o levels all day long.
teachers: o level. important. o level. important.
me: shut up. i know. shut up. i know.
i dont know who the hell give them the idea that by reminding us about o levels all the time will motivate us to study more.
maybe some other people will but for me it just make me more, erm, challenged.
one thing i dont like about teachers is they like to assume that we dont care bout our studies.
once again, i dont know what the hell do they have as evidence that shows us not caring about our damn o levels.
weird people eh?
oh, one more, i hope teachers can stop telling us to aim for A1 A1 A1 like as if its a piece of cake.
*roll my eyes*

as for cca, i dont have gruelling training anymore.
instead my cca training now is to just run the perimeter of the hall and helping out in the team.
easy eh? but its freaking boring.
nonetheless, i still prefer boring trainings to gruelling trainings.
haha.
nothing much happened since everyone is concentrating on o levels now.

i will try my best to update my blog often.
actually i like to update my blog but sometimes i just dont have the time to do so.
blogging to me is another form of way to practise my english writing and i would really love to do so if i can afford the time to do so.
so people, do forgive if i cant update my blog often. haha.
lastly, all the best for this year!
bye

♥

The vicious cycle

2010-01-03T19:52:00.004+08:00

heys people,
once again, we have come to the day whereby normal and healthy students like us will feel really moody.
SCHOOL IS STARTING TOMORROW.
*THUNDER*
homework. exam. teachers. expectation. F9. O level
there you go again, the vicious cycle is starting soon.
how great can that be?

Finally, im the graduating student in wrss.
everything happened in just a flash and it seems that im still a secondary one student just yesterday.

i remembered cursing myself for not being hardworking and got myself into wrs.
i complained about those gruelling trainings.
and POOF!
im going to leave this school and im not require to attend those sucky trainings after March.
time flies, this is seriously a fact.

on the bad side, my time with my friends are going to be just shorter and shorter.
so let's cherish our time together, create happy memories and make this year a wonderful year, alright?
We are going to play like crazy this year and we are going to be tortured by teachers this year.
let's have fun and work hard at the same time :)

cheers people and have a good night sleep.
see you all tomorrow :)
bye.

♥

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2010-01-01T00:29:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Year 2009

2009-12-31T20:10:00.012+08:00

random pictures of the year 2009.
Let the happy memories of 2009 be remembered always and the unhappy ones fade as we enter a brand new year.
wish everyone a happy new year!

♥

my holiday!

2009-12-25T01:40:00.019+08:00

heys people,
i think its time to update my blog. there will be many pictures!

Beauty & The Beast

taken in random after the play. lols.

KL Trip One

my mum's best friend's condo. her kitchen looks vintage right?

the view from the window from her kitchen.

Class 3crusaders Chalet

My Old Room :(

i cant upload the pictures of my new room cos' its still not ready yet! :(

Desaru Family Chalet

the wind there is very strong. i did not experienced such strong wind before. lols.

our chalet, looks cute right? well, better than those i lived in downtown east.

actually, its monsoon period now thus the workers there put up this red flag to warn the public that the waves are very strong. its quite dangerous but you will be safe if you dont go deep into the sea.
the morning sun!

the wind is still very strong even in the morning!
my cousins playing by the seaside.

by the way, the night sky is extremely nice at desaru! there is so many stars in the black sky that it is uncountable. my family even went for a night walk at the beach. im not exaggerating but the it looks like as though there are hundreds of stars twinkling in the night sky.
my aunt has one photo of us which was taken at around 6 or 5 years ago at desaru when all of us were still kids. i will upload that photo when i got it from my aunt.
countryside of JB. these are just plantations. the weather is nice right?

we went to the crocodile farm after we left desaru. this crocodile is at least 100+ years old.
haha. i dont know what this croc is doing but its posture looks like a dead frog.

cute picture right? i dont know why they are having the same posture. maybe they need the sunlight? lols.
dead fish for the crocs!

Christmas Party

dont ask me why the charcoal looked purplish. it just appear like that in my phone camera. lols.

cousisn playing in the swimming pool.
my mum told us to buy presents for exchange of christmas presents. the present i bought is no.2! haha. i bought a wood game. i did not get to take a picture of it. the game consists of wood chips and a bottle. a base will be put on the bottle and the coin-like chips will be put on top of each other. when the chips fall, it means game over. haha, do you even understand what im talking about? lols!

this is the present i got! :D
Beverly's and Jessica's presents :) im going to give B's present later in the afternoon! hope she like it :D anyway, i wrapped the presents myself, cute eh? im so proud of myself :D

im going to KL for some after charistmas sales the day after tomorrow. i cant wait to go shopping!

that's the end of my sharing. take care people :)

and oh! MERRY CHRISTMAS!

♥

love, where have you been?

2009-12-20T21:40:00.003+08:00

Lost, the warmth of the sun
Come, the coldness of the wind
Gone, the happiness of love.
Then, the silent cries.
Numb, the pain.
Wish, his love.
End, he is gone.

♥

PS: this is just a poem i thougt of suddenly, it does not reflect on my current mood. lols.

time heals, right?

2009-12-19T00:04:00.006+08:00

i will be back soon :)

take care.

♥

Starbucks ♥

2009-11-30T01:41:00.005+08:00

Coffee or Tea?

heys people,

im currently at Genting's Starbucks now.

i will be going back to JB tomorrow.

and im supposed to attend tomorrow's badminton training, what should i tell ms gan?

think im in a big trouble :(

haha, will update y'all bout my boring KL trip when im back to JB.

bye and take care people!

♥

Beauty And The Beast

2009-11-28T02:00:00.003+08:00

heys people,
vanessa woon sing yee is still alive and kicking.
haha, sorry that i have neglected my blog. blame it on my lazy bug :D
anyway, im going to KL tomorrow! FINALLY.
i wonder if i can go to training on monday but i doubt so as i may not be able to come back to JB on time and i have skin allergy!
my feet and hand palms are so freaking itchy :(

so how's your holiday? going well eh?
just two days ago, i went to watch a play with my literature class.
and oh, miss choo is going to teach my lit class next year! YEAHHHHHH :D
im so happy that it wont be that boring miss salena gomez to be my lit teacher. haha.
okay, back to the play. we watched Beauty And The Beast.
its an extremely nice play. funny and captivating.
that was the first time i watched a play and i think im addicted to plays now. haha.
jessica's probably going to watch it!
i cant wait to watch my second play :D

enough of sharing. i gotta go now.
bye and take care people :)

♥

Everlast Beauty

2009-11-17T23:57:00.008+08:00

heys people,
im still stuck in JB. arghhhhhh.
mum said we can only go to KL next week.
oh great, wasted my one whole week. well, at least i got to skip badminton day camp!
haha, this is the first time i decided not to go for the badminton day camp and it feels kinda weird. guility maybe? haha.

anyway, i was watching some videos of old american movies and i find it amusing.
i got to see some of the most famous american actress which i really admire.

Audrey Hepburn

yeah, the one that Blair Waldorf loves in Gossip Girl.
well, im not in love of audrey hepburn because of blair waldorf. gah, i havent even finished watching the first season of gossip girl. lols.
i like her fashion sense, the way she had her hair done in Breakfast at Tiffany's and of course, her super adorable face.
she just have that innocent look, isnt it? haha.

Elizabeth Taylor

yes, she one of MJ's closest friends.

i was so freaking shocked when i saw this picture of her.

well, she kinda looked like a um, old grandma when she appeared in the newspapers after MJ's death. she was really pretty when she was young isnt it?

gosh, ageing is the second thing that i feared most in my life. seeing her in this picture and in the newspaper just makes me cringe.

anyway, she's really popular back in the 1940s, haha.

Marilyn Monroe

i think most of you know who she is right?
she appears in art(andy warhol's artpiece) and fashion often.
seriously, she's really a classical figure in the american entertaiment industry.
she's sexy, fun and sometimes eccentric? haha.
she's the spokeperson of Chanel No. 5 in the 1950s.
her quote :"What do I wear in bed? Why, Chanel No. 5, of course"
— Marilyn Monroe

cool huh?

my new found time killing activity is to find out more about those old american movies and entertainers during this week.
haha. enough of sharing, i gotta go.
bye and take care.

one last quote,
""I'am going to die young because I can't picture myself old."
— Marilyn Monroe

♥

B and V

2009-11-14T23:00:00.008+08:00

heys people,
how's holiday going on?
im probably going to KL tomorrow or monday :)

i went out with B today.
we went to Cheelicious to have some cake and shopping after that.

the cheesecake at cheelicious is very very nice! :D

the environment there is good too. love the furniture there!

we bought books at Popular and i finally got The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks!

the next book im gonna get is Where The Rainbow Ends by Cecilia Ahern :)

then we went to cold storage and i saw many quirky and unique bottles.

well, i like to collect bottles. its just like people who like to collect stickers or stamps.

im just drawn to those unique bottles. its nice, isnt it?

i wanna collect as many bottles as i can and display it in my new bedroom. haha.

Beefeaters are cool!

this bottle is cute isnt it?

apparently, i cant really buy these drinks back home.

my mum would probably give a scolding. haha, anyway, those drinks are quite expensive too.

i think im going to buy the evian mineral glass bottle. i didnt get to take a photo of it today.

never mind, i will take a picture of it when i buy it :)

i wanted to get this Paul Smith limited edition evian mineral glass bottle too!

i wondered if it can be bought in malaysia or singapore. haha.

i wanted the 8 coke bottles that were designed by 8 italian designers so much!

haha, and apparently, im not able to get it cos its autioned off in Milan.

haha, enough of sharing.
i gotta go now.
bye and take care!

♥

im moving away soon

2009-11-10T23:39:00.004+08:00

heys guys,
i havent told y'all that im moving to a new condo soon right?
haha, yeah, my mum sold my house and bought a condo.
well, to be honest, im not at all excited to move into my new condo.
i think that condo gave more inconveniences than the house im in now.
first, its small.
second, its far away from my friends.
third, i like my house now.
fourth, i need to pack all my things into boxes. (i have soooo many things! how am i able to pack them?!)
fifth, i had a lot of memories here.
last, i dont wanna anyone to ever occupy my bedroom. (should i put a curse in my room before i leave? yeah, im very selfish when it comes to MY bedroom!)
the reason my mum gave me was she felt that my current neighbourhood is not safe and many crimes was committed during the past few years.
guards and security systems will calm her insecurities.
gah, i did tried to show my displeasure to move away.
my brother did not seemed to be of any help.
the final decision still lies on my mum and obviously, she made the decision that always opposed mine.

i do hope i can adapt to my new house.
i know in terms of biology, animals adapt for survival.
im one of those animals that will take a hell load of time to just adapt to one place.
hello, it took me 2 years time to adapt to wrss. gah.
my mum told me that the condo we were going to live in has quite a number of foreigners esp. japanese.
well, japanese are cute but im more interested in caucasians. haha.
that's the only positive thought i could think of.
i hope it isnt as bad as i thought it would be.
i'll make the best out of it :)

anyway, today i procrastinated and did not do anything meaningful except going to the theatres again and watched This Is It.
once again, im going to say, its a freaking nice movie. go and watch it! haha.

just about one hour ago, my mum asked my brother and i whether we wanted to go overseas.
actually, i dont really have the mood to go overseas right now.
i dont know why, im usually very excited to go overseas for a holiday.
maybe it is because my mum wants to go to China which im not very interested in.
i wanna go to Shanghai because i have been reading and watched old shanghai movies/books therefore im interested to go there and take a look.
on second thought, i think it will be better if i can go there after i got my camera.
perhaps, i iwll just procrastinate at home this holiday which is the most meaningless end of year holiday i ever had. haha.
my mum would bring my whole family to KL next week. its time to have a shopping spree with my mum :)

oh!i gotta sleep now as there's still school tomorrow.
my intuition tells me that tomorrow is going to be a very boring day cos' there's training :(
bye and take care people.

PS: it just came across my mind that it is voon jin's birthday now! haha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VOON JIN!

♥

dentist.teeth.gone.

2009-11-08T17:53:00.003+08:00

heys people,
how's life? i was practiacally procrastinating all day, waiting for the day to go by.
haha, i visited the dentist today. im supposed to get two teeth plucked out but the dentist said that my teeth arent ready yet.
well, i do have mixed feelings for that.
i fet relief but at the same time annoyed. i felt relief because i was spared from the pain and the trouble of bleeding after that. yet, i felt annoyed because i will sort of need to worry for one more month when will the day come.

by the way, i just realised that i did not blogged bout my EOY results.
haha, i forgot about it.
let's just get to the point, my L1R5 = 20.
yeah, it sort of sucks. but well, i will work hard eh? *doubtful look*
lols. i will try my very best, i swear, to focus on my studies.

i gotta go now as i need to finish my literature homework
bye and take care people.

♥

3crusaders gathering 09

2009-11-08T01:31:00.002+08:00

heys people!
sorry for the lack of updates. haha, was feeling very lazy lately.
well, fine, im always lazy.

so, 3crusaders had a BBQ gathering in the school last friday. it was fun, isnt it?
i had a fun time with my classmates.
i like to see my classmates doing things together :D
of course, we have our ultimate VIP, mrs kok.
she's quite friendly actually that day unlike her usual serious expression.

the photos will be updated later cos the photos not with me :(
so do stay tuned for the photos.

take care people.
and all hail crusaders!

♥

This Is It

2009-11-01T13:26:00.005+08:00

hey guys,
how's you start of the holiday? haha, the thought of going back to school for extra lessons and those gruelling cca trainings just dampen my holiday mood.
apparently, all my holiday plans are in a mess now because of unexpected events.
im not going to perth becuase of extra lessons in school.
i may not be able to go thailand with beverly and my mum is considering on whether to bring us overseas for a holiday.
holiday doesnt seems exciting for me anymore.
the only one thing that i really wanna do over the holidays is to just go shopping with friends.
haha, pretty boring isnt it?

anyway, how did you spent your Halloween yesterday?
mind is quite fun :D

i watched THIS IS IT with my cousins and aunts!
oh my god! i seriously urged everyone out there to watch this awesome movie.
i would say it is the best movie i've ever watched :D
MJ is definitely the King Of Pop and he always will be. i dont think anyone could ever replaced him. obviously, im going to watch it more than once. so do ask me out if you wanna watch it :D
i can watch it for many many many times :)
well, my mum wanna watch it again too. she wants to have a standing ovation for MJ.
my family is pretty in the MJ frenzy now, we even clapped and cheered yesterday after the movie ended in the theatre yesterday. my mum said she even wanted to shout,"MJ i love you!". haha, i think that we are going to say that when my family is going to watch it again.
i cant wait to watch it again!

after the movie, all of us which include my aunts and cousins, went to a cafe for a small Halloween party.

mum teaching my brother to play pool at the cafe.

staff at the cafe made an effort to create a Halloween atmosphere.

my aunt was freak out when she went to the toilet. well, she's a little timid:D

hope you have a fun Halloween too :)

gotta go now.
take care people!

♥

dancing in the rain, smiling

2009-10-22T17:51:00.005+08:00

Life is just full of surprises.

heys people,

im sorry that i wasnt able to update my blog lately due to my laziness.

haha. so how's your week?

i have a very pleasant week because i got to make new friends and finally, my unaswered questions was answered

i just cant stop smiling to myself.

haha. anyway, im getting back my report book next tuesdat. well, im not really anticipating that day to come cos' i think my results is quite disastrous.

my brother took his yesterday and he improved! finally, that baby brother of mine woke up from his dreams and is willing to study now.

yesterday, i even had to stay at singapore till 9pm just to wait for him to take his report book.

luckily, my best friend came and accompanied me.

we had a long chat and i just feel so good since we havent been talking for ages.

as for today, lessons were extrmely boring.

i dont really have the mood to sit there and let the teachers drone on.

well, i dont think there's any interesting for me to share with y'all.

let's just count down to our holidays , people :)

♥

R, ZY, JY,B & V

2009-10-17T21:18:00.002+08:00

heys people,
so how's saturday?
seriously, what can a girl do after exams? SHOPPING :D
i went out with Beverly and her friends today.

finally, i got the chance to meet Rivario and YongJung.
as for zhengyong, i met him in customs sometimes but we did not talk.
rivario and zhengyong are cool and yongjung is just like a kid :)
haha.
nevertheless, i enjoyed my day with them :)

we took two photos but its with the boys now so i cant post them up.
i will post them up when i received it from them.

hope you enjoy your saturday too.
bye and take care.

♥

where are you?

2009-10-15T20:42:00.006+08:00

it used to be us.

it used to be ours.

but now,

it is you and me.

it is yours and mine.

this post is actually dedicated to someone who has been one of confidantes but not now anymore. im posting it here because i have no idea how to communicate with him/her.
let's call him or her X.
i cant sms X.
i cant call X.
i can talk to X in msn.
of course, i cant talk to X face to face.
so, tell me how do you communicate with someone like this?
the only way is through my blog even though i know X will not read my blog.
but let's just hope that X is so freaking boring to just drop by. damn X.

actually, in fact X will never know what i am thinking because i dont think X will ever visit my blog again.
why? the fact that X just doesnt cares anymore.
im disappointed and that's for sure.
the part that sadden me the most is how easily X let this friendship crumble without even making the effort to save it.
and i dare say, i did tried my very best to save this wrecked friendship of ours.
you are the one who let it go.
you are the one who destroyed everything.

im surprised at how things turn out to be.
ya know what? i have enough of it. sick and tired of it.
there's no point carrying on a relationship when only one party commits, right?
maybe X doesnt even know that there's a problem here. well, damn X for that then.

X has changed into someone whom i cannot trust or talk to anymore.
i wanna MY X back, not the one who is like a piece of shit to me now.
seriously, im not going to care anymore.
i hope i mean it. i really hope i do.

im not at all interested in anything that's involved in your life.
i shall give you my blessings and best wishes.
the end.

PS: dont asked me about anything about X. dont even try to mention it infront of me. thanks for your kindness and mercy.

a smile is all it takes

2009-10-14T20:08:00.005+08:00

heys people,
how's your results?
dont ask about mine because it sucks.
i guess its time to just get over it and get on with life.
we still have next year right? yeah, you are right, im just trying to be positive here.
I AM POSITIVE, AM I? *smiles*

anyway, i've using the computer since 5pm and im supposed to finish my e maths homework.
this homework is about some sort of 3D figures. its so freaking difficult!
i cant really visualise it. probably, i will refer to my friend's answer tomorrow.
refer is the right word here :)

actually, i dont really have anything to share but i just feel really boring now.
life after exam just make me feel a little meaningless?
haha, actually i still one more chemistry test to go since i failed mine for EOY.
im just too lazy to start studying again.
its just like jogging, once you give up and walk, its very hard for you to run again, right?
well, i hope you get the idea.

i think i gotta go now.
so to people who did not attained their desirable grades, just smile and get over it.
bye and take care.

♥

Finally, the sky is cleared

2009-10-10T18:48:00.002+08:00

heys people!
examinations are over! oops, sorry to whose who havent finished theirs.
although i still have some homework undone, i dont give a damn about it.
haha, im in my holiday mood now.
the point is there's still many out there who havent finished their examination and so, i cant asked them out!
im so freaking bored today.

yesterday, i had a shopping spree with jessica bitch.
haha, freaking fun to shop with her and we are seriously kind :D
yeah, only jessica will understand the pun here.
so people, if you all have anything fun going on and do not have enough people, feel free to ask me out. haha. im seriously bored.

anyway, anyone wanna watch Sorority Row?
seems horror to me but i think it would be nice to just give myself a shock once in a while.
oh! im going to perth this coming holiday.
im quite excited about it because i can finally leave Asia :D !

i think there's nothing interesting interesting for me to share.
gotta go
take care people and to those who are still taking their exams, hold on and your sky will be cleared soon :)

♥

LAST HURDLE

2009-10-07T20:00:00.003+08:00

heys people of WRSS,

last paper of the year.

let's be resilient and everything's going to be fine after tomorrow.

good luck people!

♥

UNHAPPY :(

2009-10-05T15:22:00.004+08:00

Literature screwed up

Chemistry screwed up

what's next?

biology?

Whatever happens, just dont let go of my hand

2009-10-04T14:00:00.003+08:00

♥

Just get on with life

2009-09-27T18:53:00.005+08:00

Life seems so dull now.

Everything seems so challenging now.

Everyone seems to be faster and smarter.

and yet,

im still at the starting line.

study,books and results.

ultimately, it just give you a damn certificate.

undoubtedly, its very important.

because that certificate determines whether you can survive at the harsh we are protected from.

we still have a long long long way to go.

it is so long that i can only see a bleak future.

my purpose of studying has not been the same.

i memorised damn answers instead of understanding them.

i wanted goo results because i dont believe that i cant 'win' my classmates who's like freaking clever.

i dont wanna admit the fact that other people are born smart.

i dont wanna admit the fact that some people can just score in examination without doing their homework and not revising their work.

i came to realise that the world is never fair.

i choose to admit all these stuff in another way. its just the way of life, its never fair.

i've been procrastinating for whole weekend even though examinations are going on.

damn that sense of guility.

my mum is not really very strict or set high standards for my studies.

but, i just cant lose to my classmates.

who like to lose? maybe some people just dont care and that they think if they are doing okay, then they are okay with it.

for me, i dont. i dont like to lose to people, i dont people around me to be disappoiunted with me even if they dont show it.

that feeling of wanting to win is taking a toll on me.

now, i wish i can just say, i dont give a damn shit about my freaking studies.

well, i can choose to do that. hell yeah, i do have that choice. but why cant i just choose that?

apart from this, relationships.

you know what? damn relationships. damn damn damn.

im not talking about boyfriend and stuffs.

friends. im sick of pretending that things are alright even when they are not.

its falling apart and everyone just smile and says "best friend forever,eh?"

freak that. im not mentioning who. but if you are feeling some sort of familarity with this, then maybe its you.

i hate to manage relationships. yes, i hate it.

i dont like to socialise with people, for your information.

i seriously dont.

in school, i would really much prefer to isolate myself from other people.

i like to do things alone. i like to do things in my own pace. i like to do things when i want to.

i dont like people to interrupt my thoughts.

everytime im quiet, people think that im just unhappy or angry towards something or someone.

im not. for god's sake, once and for all, im going to tell y'all that im not.

i just dont wanna talk, get it?

I JUST DONT WANNA TALK.

im thinnking and that's why i dont feel like talking.

oh, please stop being an asshole to irritate me when you know i dont feel like talking.

sometimes, i need to suppress the urge of slapping people who do that.

im not kidding when im typing this.

i know im weird becuase people has talk to me about it.

i am not giving a damn to people who thinks im weird or whatever bullshit.

im just going to be like that because i dont live in this world for you to like me.

im not living in this world for the sake of making you happy while making myself feeling miserable.

im just going to behave like this and be myself.

im going to leave singapore or malaysia some day and im not coming back ever.

to me, these places just remind me of bad memories instead of those happy ones.

im going to leave everything behind and get on with life.

probably everything but not everyone.

i know who truly loves me and i know who is my real friends.

i assured them, they will always be with me whenever i go.

god, i feel so damn good after writing this post.

i think people will just skip this post.

but if you have finished reading the whole thing,

i think i need to thank you because not many people likes to read such a lenghty post.

haha.

gotta go people.

take care.

♥

flea market!

2009-09-21T13:13:00.006+08:00

heys people,
i know i havent been blogging lately. yeah, im lazy to.
very lazy indeed and another reason will be im seriosuly busy with my schoolwork. exams around the corner and i still have tons of homework to be done :(

still, i get to take out some time for fun!
yesterday, i went to Flea Titan III with yuanyu, jingsuan and hannah.
it was fun!
i loveeee flea markets! i can find a lot of cheap unique stuffs there.
other people's trash is one treasure, heard that before?

i spent $95 and i actually can spent a lot more but i manage to exert self-control on vanessawoon the shopaholic. haha.
i intend to bring my sister, Jean and maybe my aunts to the flea titan 4 since they love cheap bargains.

okay, as for now, i shall upload the photos during my stay at beverly's house over the september holidays. haha. i know its a little late but do pardon my laziness.

haha. im wearing wrss shorts and bev is wearing swiss cottage skirt!

tea time!

both of us doing our homework, we are not that lazy, are we? haha.

beverly bought this in Mel for me, men or chocolate? MEN :D

what about you?

Beverly wanted to go to a catholic church because she's still in the Mel Catholic Church frenzy at that time. so we went to this Catholic Church called Holy Light.

it was said to be the oldest church in Johor Bahru.

Beverly taking pictures of me. haha.

anyway, i want a camera! i want a DLSR.

i dont thing my mum will buy one for me. it will take me a hell load of hardwork to persuade my mum to buy me one. so, is there any kind soul out there to buy me one? :D haha, i dont need those 2000 plus ones. i just want a very simple one just for beginners. i think that cost aroun 900+. so anyone? :D

haha. i think that's the end of my sharing. i gotta study now. take care and study hard people!

♥

09/09/09

2009-09-09T21:24:00.006+08:00

its 9 September 2009

09/09/09

today's date

represents the last set of repeating, single-digit dates that we'll see for almost a century

well, its kind of a special date.

so did anything special happened to you today?

♥

i just cant stop complaining

2009-09-08T22:17:00.002+08:00

hey guys,
i think im getting older by the minute.
i've been working on maths for the past few days and seriously, i dont feel that im progressing in my homework.
for every question, i need to spend 15mins-20mins to solve it.
yeah, its okay if you call me dumb.
im dumb, i know so stop rubbing on it.
that is why im trying very hard to fit into my smart class. freak that.

freak freak freak freak freakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!
obviously, im feeling really irritated now because everything just seems to be screwed up!
yes! screwed up! know what it means?
oh my god, i cant seems to keep up with my plans for the week.
by right, i should be revising some other subjects now and yet im still stuck with a maths.
fuck that. omg, im seriously piss off.
piss of with? WITH ME.
small size small brain, you see. i cant think fast like people who excel in maths.

okay, i think im feeling better now.
erm, well actually im not.
anyway, i dont think by blogging can help me with anything.
im typing here for the sake of doing something that has nothing got to do with maths.

yeah, life sucks.

nice holiday, huh?

2009-09-08T19:36:00.004+08:00

hey guys.
today has been boring. dont you agree?
im trying very hard to finish my a maths homework and yes, im struggling like someone who is drowning.
the geometry chapter is driving me insanse and i still have my tuition homework which is due tomorrow!
woah, what a nice holiday? get me a knife and i shall slit my wrists.

well, the only good thing that is worth mentioning today was my trip to a vintage cafe.
hmm, its not exactly those kind of a cosy cafe but those old restaurant?
A picture is worth a thousand words, i shall post the pictures then.

anyway, that chicken chop is really famous in JB and of course, i love it :D

and well, i think i better be going off soon cos' i still have my homeworkkkkkk.
good luck people, with all those homework and exams going on.

take care

♥

Behind everything, there is a reason

2009-09-07T17:02:00.004+08:00

i wish i can sit sit back and contemplate the world im in.

there are too many distractions, manipulations and deceptions in life,

which i cannot see it coming.

hey guys
how's your day?
mine is just idling around in Beverly's house.
my family went to Kuala Lumpur and i did not tag along cos i dont feel like going.
therefore, i landed myself at Beverly's house.
haha, i wanna spent my time on my studies which is another reason i did not go to KL.
i had maths tuition today and finished some of my homework.
life revolves around studies now.
i wanna get my studies on track :(

i must admit that life is boring now.
i wish i can have a shopping spree and idle around at home without feeling guility. well, i think i will just need to hang on for a few more weeks.
i hope everything's going well for you guys :)

take care people

♥

INTERNATIONAL COASTAL CLEAN-UP!

2009-09-05T21:22:00.002+08:00

hey guys!
so i have a very fufiling start of my holiday. how about yours?
i hope you are not lazing in your bed like my dear BFF did :D

today, class 3e1.3e2.3e3 went to pasir ris park to clear the mangroves there.
well, it was fun :)
im one of the leaders and although i feel that im not really a very good leader but i do try very hard to look after all my members and gave them my attention whenever they need it.
never mind, i can always improve myself next time.
i like to be in the mangrove even if its really muddy.
like what our very dear biology teacher said, we love the nature!

claps to all the classes involved.
claps to all the leaders whom i knew put in a lot of effort to make things work out today.

ALL HAIL CRUSADERS! :D

cupcakes!

2009-08-29T19:00:00.009+08:00

hey guys
i went to singapore today to meet up with voonjin,sam,guojian,jessica,jiamin and er, her boyfriend bernie to prepare our teacher's presents.

we went to Republic Poly's library until 12pm and had lunch at subway.

later, we went to the library at civic centre.

as usual, we crap and crap and crap but this time at least, we did accomplished something.
guojian embarrassed us by just shouting and laughing like a freak.
worse still, we are at 4th floor of the library which is the children's section, i guess many children were scared to be near us.
he is so obsessed with my bag that he tried to snatch it away from me. yeah, he's that scary. BEWARE. haha.

i found a cool pastry book at the library and guojian and me kept taking pictures of those cute cupcakes in the book!

Guo Jian love my bag :D

and i love my bag and shoes :D

our favourite cupcake, the ladybug!

i took this because its MJ's 51st birthday today.

happy birthday MJ!

i know he's dead, you need not remind me of that. lols.

doesnt this reminds you of Hogwarts?

MY SHOES :D

that's all for today.

bye

♥

PS: to all crusaders, those who havent sent us your dedications. do so by tonight. thank you:)

PPS: sorry to all malays cos i uploaded so many cupcakes in this post. hope im forgiven :(

my busy school life

2009-08-28T22:49:00.006+08:00

hey guys
i have been so busy that i dont have the time to update my freaking dead blog.
cca trainings and homework have already occupied most of my time.
im involved in the teacher's day celebration commitee in my class and the upcoming service learning journey thus my remaining free time will be helping out my group mates to plan the mentioned events.
even though its very tiring, i like it.
i like to be occupied instead of slacking around at homw or browsing the net without a purpose. there's actually some purpose in life, at least. haha.
plus, i will not have my thoughts wander to those silly thoughts of mine.
so how's your week?
beverly is going to spend her weekend at Melbourne. yeah, im jealous of her.
right now, she's probably on the plane listening to her ipod or just dozing off.
she will be back by tuesday night and i cant imagine not talking to someone on the phone for 5 days. i will miss her :(

anyway, i went to the library books sale at expo last week with beverly.
i bought 8 books at $16 :D
im so proud of myself that i got myself some cheap but worthy books.
me and beverly wandered around haji lane after that and haji lane is just so nice.
we love the environment there.

i gotta go now.
bye

♥

PS: to 3crusaders, please do email me your dedications by tomorrow.
if you do not know what to write, do visit our class blog www.3crusaders.blogspot.com
thanks :D

Dreams and rains

2009-08-23T03:17:00.006+08:00

Its 3.21am and im still wide awake.

im not having insomia.

its just that, i dont wanna sleep.

The rain is going to stop.

the roarings of the thunders stopped.

now, there's only the split and splash sound of the rain on the rooftop.

tomorrow is going to be a busy day.

im surrounded by tons of undone homework.

and there's goes my Sunday.

i had a fun time with B today.

i love her very much ♥

we were shopping ,walking around and crapping.

photos will be uploaded soon.

anyway,

im going to sleep soon.

and how i wish,

the sweet scent of roses will greet me in the morning.

the sun shining brightly warming my little room.

Letters filled with love by my bedside.

yeah, how i wish.

have a good night people

♥

fail fail fail

2009-08-18T17:44:00.002+08:00

A Maths. Fail.

Social Studies. Fail.

good.

how clever vanessa is.

she's definitely the genius.

my happy moments of my childhood, where?

2009-08-12T21:18:00.003+08:00

Tell me about your happy moments during your childhood.

this was the topic for today's english oral.

surprisingly,

i cant recall of any.

only some vague images came into my mind.

maybe i was too nervous.

i asked my mum.

she told me i love pink panters when i was young.

yeah, its true.i still love it now.

she told me i love to stay at my nanny's house.

yeah, i used to cry when im leaving my nanny's house.

actually, i do remember those happy and carefree moments after all.

its just that nobody reminds me of it.

im glad that those lovely memories came back to me.

♥

She's one of a kind

2009-08-08T20:33:00.007+08:00

i may not be the best,

but i did my best.

i may not be the perfect one,

but i may be the good one.

i may not be the prettiest among all,

but at least i am not the uglisest among all.

i may not be the smartest,

but i am smart.

i may not be the tallest,

but i am tall.

i may not be popular,

but i am loved.

i may not have everything,

but i have things i need.

that is me.

that is my signature style.

that is my character.

that is vanessa woon's motto.

And,

that is vanessa woon's life.

And,

that is something no one have.

And,

that is something that no one can replicate.

For vanessa woon sing yee is one of a kind.

♥

The King of Pop Art Andy Warhol

2009-08-08T13:03:00.009+08:00

My favourite artist - Andy Warhol.
i think he is just so cool.
he can draw ordinary things into extraordinary paintings.
i love the king of pop and i think i love the king of pop art too.
haha.
definitely, i cannot be the king or queen for both.
im not that into singing so can i be the princess of pop art,maybe?
i wish i have the brain and hands of Andy Warhol.
and maybe, the legs of MJ. (haha, sorta random for this)
this is just quite a random post, i just want to blog about Andy Warhol.

The first time i was introduced to his artworks was during miss nur's art lessons.
and i could not forget his artworks later.
i did some research in wikipedia and read some basic information about him.
through that, i was exposed to more of his artworks.
the colours of his artworks just fascinate me cos im kind of bad in terms of choosing colours.
thos pictures up there are examples of his more famous artworks.
the colours are nice huh? and the way he drew them look some kind of like sloppy?
how do i describe that feeling? sloppy isnt a very good word. haha.
it just looks like a draft, its not those carefully planned out paintings.
okay i think of a better word for it - natural.
bingo, i think that's the word.
it just look natural, it was like as if, he just drew that without much effort.

that brings me to remember my art lessons.
i miss art lessons.
even though i dont have that art talent, i can still draw something at least?
haha.
art is definitely more interesting than a maths or biology.
gah.

i gotta go now.
i needa eat my lunch. take care people :)

i know this is kind of a short and random post cos im kinda rush now.
i will post more interesting information about Andy Warhol when i have the time :)

♥

how about a lazy weekend?

2009-08-07T20:24:00.010+08:00

im feeling so lazy right now.

i wish i can wear my colourful socks and pyjamas

and laze on my bed all day long.

Today, we had our NDP celebration in school.

it sucks?

cos' Eika and Jessica were busy with their damn duties.

the only interesting thing today was the parade.

seriously, i think the parade was cool :)

i like the synchronization and the samrt uniform.

and oh, their gloves!

it reminds me of MJ. haha.

it's just that MJ donned only one sequined glove.

we sang all day long.

we sang quite a number of national day songs.

we were all singing out loud. and some idiots like to scream for nothing?

they screamed to irritate people.

gah.

anyway, Mr Chong can sing really well :D

sorry for the abscence of pictures because there's nothing

worth for me to capture any pictures.

By the way,i have a lot of things to do during my long weekends :(

1. Shopping with B?

2. Finish my school homework

3. Get some scones!

4. make a trip to the bookstore

5. Watch my MJ live concert DVD!

6. Start on my fashion sketchbook

7. Revision for upcoming tests

i am going to be real busy.

a little note:

*you are mine, always mine

♥

peace that has been chased away

2009-08-04T21:10:00.003+08:00

Leave me alone, will ya?

your very existence jeopardise my peace.

your very little movement affects me.

your voice is as though an evil witch's chant.

disappear from my life,

and promise,

you will not be back.

My lovely dream

2009-08-02T14:08:00.004+08:00

i had a very nice dream yesterday.

it was just so sweet.

my morning wasnt a good one because i was greeted by my alarm clock.

it was making a din and forced me to open my eyes.

anyway,

today i tidied up my bedroom and i think i needa to work on my logarithms later.

before doing logarithms, im going out with B for some scones and stationary.

i cant wait to have scones with B.

maybe, i shall share my lovely dream with her.

im sure she will be disgusted by it.

♥

chasing the wind at the beach

2009-08-01T19:42:00.004+08:00

i wanna go to the beach, anyone?

i want to read a book by the beach.

i want to busk under the sun.

i want to be hit by the waves.

i want to run around the beach.

i want to collect seashells.

i want to feel the sea breeze.

i want to draw on the sand.

i just want to have a lazy day at the beach.

♥

ask

2009-07-31T22:32:00.006+08:00

She have the questions but not the answers.

she does not ask nor does she clarify.

all she does is to listen and look.

looking for signs and proof,

infer from what she saw and found.

playing psychological games,

guessing his or her mind.

observing their demeanour and composure,

looking at their body language.

focus on their windows of the soul,

for they are the only entrance to the soul and mind.

after so long, she cannot get her answers.

she search for it but to no avail.

its like walking in Amazon,

surrounded by tall strong trees.

no maps and hints.

only your intuition tells you where to go.

there's no definite right or wrong,

for there is nothing to prove it.

alas, she's tired.

she only have one last chance:

ask.

asking for it?

asking for the answers?

asking for everything that bothers her?

asking for response?

asking for the truths?

asking for the trust?

she shook her head and went off.

she finally understands,

sometimes something,

it is better to be left untouched,

for it hurts the soul and mind.

-wsy

We Had Him by Maya Angelou

2009-07-26T13:47:00.004+08:00

We Had Him

Beloveds,
now we know that we know nothing,
now that our bright and shining star
can slip away from our fingertips
like a puff of summer wind.

Without notice,
our dear love can escape our doting embrace.
Sing our songs among the stars and walk our dances
across the face of the moon.

In the instant that Michael is gone,
we know nothing.
No clocks can tell time.
No oceans can rush our tides
with the abrupt absence of our treasure.

Though we are many,
each of us is achingly alone,
piercingly alone.

Only when we confess our confusion
can we remember
that he was a gift to us
and we did have him.

He came to us from the creator,
trailing creativity in abundance.

Despite the anguish,
his life was sheathed in mother love,
family love,
and he survived
and did more than that.

He thrived
with passion and compassion,
humor and style.
We had him
whether we know who he was or did not know,
he was ours and we were his.

We had him,
beautiful,
delighting our eyes.

His hat slant over his brow,
and took a pose on his toes for all of us.
And we laughed and stomped our feet for him.

We were enchanted with his passion
because he held nothing.
He gave us all he had been given.

Today in Tokyo,
beneath the Eiffel Tower,
in Ghana's Black Star Square.
In Johannesburg
and Pittsburgh,
in Birmingham, Alabama,
and Birmingham, England

We are missing Michael.

But we do know we had him,
and we are the world.

-Maya Angelou

Maya Angelou is a great poet and her poem of Michael Jackson is just lovely.

Racial Harmony Day!

2009-07-24T19:31:00.009+08:00

heys people,
i had a fun time in school today!
our school had our racial harmony celebration today.
today's celebration was the best i ever had.
i wore malay traditional clothes, decorate the notice board, took pictures with my friends and had fun :)
seriously, i think my class is a great class. not only we are smart *uh hum*, we are *uh-hum* talented in art too :D * smug look*
haha. im not being an ignorant girl here.
i shall upload the photos here for the benefit of those who doesnt have a facebook.

OUR VERY FANTASTIC NOTICE BOARD! haha!

classmates working on the kites and watching some really cool videos.

one of the kites!

OUR VERY OWN PLEDGE!

me and bitch :)

me and celia :D

nicole, jiayee and meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

leon and me! he's just freaking tall and he had to bend down to compromise my height. gahhhh.

two freaking tall weirdos. haha.

two tall weirdos: leon and guojian! they are enemies cum friends. complicated huh?
sometimes they are like enemies but sometimes they are like really good friends. see, told ya, they are weirdos. haha.

bitch and leon :)

bitch and ermmm, the coldest creature in our school?
she's the most coolest person i've ever met. she's really not friendly with strangers so erm, dont try to provoke her. lols.

see? that's what i mean by "coooool"
after the celebration, jessica and i walked to admiralty MRT station to change out.
we dont wanna use the school toilet cos erm, for some reasons?
then, i just wanna be stupid, i was wearing my pumps with my socks.
Jessica wanna take a picture of me being stupid.

haha. does it looks stupid? i think its seriously cool. i went out like that with Beverly to the mall alright? yes yes yes. shirt tucked in and school socks with pumps on walking around a mall.

haha. jessica said, "give me some drama!"
i was like oh okay. i gave this stupid pose.
anyway, Beverly told me that Marc Jacobs latest collection consists of wearing shoes with high socks. see, i have the same fashion sense as Marc Jacobs! wearing high socks with shoes now is the IN thing now alright? haha.

bitch and me! haha.

after that, we went home separately.
i went to Kranji to meet Beverly.
we went to city square and did some shopping.
we went to Coffee Bean to read our magazines.

this is coffee bean's carrot cake! its quite nice but i dont really like the taste of the cream though. the overall of the taste is quite good :)

that's the end of my very fun day :)
the only bad thing that happened today was i lost my very geeky spectacles!
rest assured people, im getting a new one which is exactly the same.
ugly betty of wrs will still be around :) haha.

gotta go now.
a small note, do remember to revise your work people cos our tests are around the corner.
take care of your health too cos' a few of my friends was sick.
take care.
bye :)

PS: ALL HAIL 3CRUSADERS!

bullshit

2009-07-22T21:10:00.003+08:00

heys people
today's wednesday and i cant wait for saturday to come.
i've encountered 2 things which i categorised as bullshit.
it doesnt sounds nice and yes, it sounds a little erm.. bad? for a girl to say that.
but who cares?

1. CCA training
first bullshit of the week. seriously, i think woodlands sports hall should just close down and maybe use that damn land to build some HDB flats or any damn thing for singaporeans.
everytime when school's not suppose to have CCA, i will have people telling me that badminton training will be still on at the sports hall. my reaction will be - bullshit. who gives a freaking damn bout cca training? oh my god.

2. Treat other people the way you want them to treat you.
second bullshit of the week. there's one thing that i learnt this week, sometimes people are just nonchalant or ignorant. well, i dont know how they think becuase i dont really wanna care about it. thus, i dont bother to ask or clarify. if i treat them as my friend, they may not treat me as their friend in return. great. freak off, ass.

im a little piss. well, i think i still need to work on my emotinal awarness. but im proud to say that im able to manage my emotions lately :)
except that i almost try to kill a freaking childish boy today. haha.
tomorrow's thursday. good. two more days to go, the vicious cycle will end.

actually sometimes school do sucks.
i think i'll have to agree with B that maybe home-schooling isnt that bad at all.
you dont have cca, no teachers to nag you, no attire check, no need to manage relatioships, need not go in and out of singapore everyday, need not wake up so freaking early, need not care about my damn hair or appearance etc.

for some moments in my life, i wish i can start everything all over again.
everyone make mistakes. well, that's for sure.
but i think i've make too many and i wish i could have a second chance. haha.
enough of negative thoughts.

i should look forward to my weekends :)
i would love to busk under the lovely sun.
i would really want to read a book and knit.
i wanted to paint.
haha. there's seems quite a number of things i wanna do.
cant wait for my weekends to come :)

gotta go now
bye :)

PS: just some humorous stuuf

PPS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE!

a lazy sunday

2009-07-19T11:01:00.003+08:00

hey guys
i feel so lazy right now.
there's biology,chemistry and e maths homework waiting for me to do but i just feel like using the computer.
its not like i have anything to do, i just feel like surfing the internet without any purpose in particular. haha. does that sounds illogical?
and duh, im a little sick of using blogger.
i feel like switching to LJ but it seems that i dont really know how to use it cos there's no HTML code for me to work on. is there? B hasnt taught me how to use it yet.
xanga? god, i dont even know what is it.
yes, im listening to MJ's songs now.
found a new song yesterday and im currently in love with it :)
maybe i will choose it as my blog song next time.
as for now, i think myl ife is just so damn boirng.
sorry for the lack of pictures in my blog recently cos im duh, lazy to take pictures.

i think i gotta go now, to have my breakfast and well, very unwillingly to finish my homework.
bye :)

SUSHI AND MOVIE

2009-07-18T15:41:00.004+08:00

hey guys
i had a great time yesterday :)
Jessica, Pamela, GuoJian, Guo Wei and I went to Sakae for a buffet.
and god, guojian assume that all of us are like pigs and he kept ordering food.
he's like,"give me 3 of this. this also. this also 3. this one too.."
all of us was like are you sure you can finish it? he gave us an assuring yes.
but it seems to be that he cant and the 4 of us have to help clear away his food by stuffing it into our mouth.

the food in this photo is just some of the food we ate.
we ordered 74 plates altogether.
we are so freaking bloated. Guojian almost cry. haha

so, after that horrific sushi meal.
Jiamin joined us to catch the movie, Obsessed.
oh god, i love Beyonce in that movie.
she's freaking fierce :)
actually, there's no big deal about the movie. we watched it cos there's beyonce.
we love the part when she was quarreling with her husband.
Husaband : Sharon! where can i go?!
Beyonce : To hell.
LOLS. it may not seem funny here but duh, we laughed when we were watching it.
the movie is all about how to deal with a freaking bitch.
i said the F word for a few times cos i seriously cant stand that bitch. oh my god.
lols.

after the movie, i went to buy Wilfred's present.
we sorta hang around at causeway point for a while and we went home after that.
we are anticipating our next outing with pamela :)

gotta go now bye :)

RAINING:(

2009-07-11T18:04:00.001+08:00

just when i thought it would nice to blog about a fine weather, it rains.
gah, i hate rain :(

WHAT A FINE DAY :)

2009-07-11T16:41:00.003+08:00

hey guys.
today seems to be a nice day huh?
i love the sun :)
i hate having rainy days cos it seems to always spoil everything.
so how's your saturday?
Beverly went to malacca and yes, she must be taking tons of picture of our very vintage state in malaysia now.
haha. im alone at home now and i just love the freedom of doing anything i want without anyone bugging me.
i can use the computer or do my homework.
the best thing is i can blast my speakers with MJ's songs :)
i gotta go now and i hope you enjoy this very fine saturday.

bye.

COTTON DOUGH!

2009-07-09T21:23:00.004+08:00

hey guys!
my sister, Jean Woon and her very cute friends had just opened a blog shop.
the clothes they are selling are mostly based on vintage and simplicity.
definitely, their clothes are far more worth it than those typical singaporeans girls wear.
theirs are more stylish and well, of course more fashionable.
the price are reasonable too.
i know some of you buy clothes online so do just drop by and have a look :)
COTTON DOUGH HERE!

KING OF POP!

2009-07-08T20:12:00.003+08:00

King Of Pop

Michael Joseph Jackson

1958-2009

You will be missed ♥

hey guys

apparently, i havent got over the Michael Jackson frenzy.

i slept at 1030pm last night and woke up at 0100am this morning.

i wanna watch MJ's memorial live on TV so i woke up 0100am.

i watched till 0400am and i went to school after finishing watching the memorial.

yes, i was dead tired and i slept in almost every class i attended today.

so, i watched the memorial again just now and wanna watch some exclusive later.

god, i still cant believe that he's dead.

he's a legend.

the most touching moments of the memorial was when his duaghter, Paris spoke at the end of the memorial. i admire her for having the courage to express her love for her father infront of the media.

She must have felt terrible because i know exactly how it feels to lose a loved one.

seriously, i dont know when i can i get over this MJ frenzy but i think he will always be idol.

not that kind of handsome idols that i saw on those dramas but those idols that i respect and admire.

he's truly someone who made a history in the music world.

he will be missed ♥

i know some of you must have feel disgusted about me having MJ as my idol.

his looks and eccentric behaviours may make you feel that he's a mad pervert.

but for me, he's not that bad. he's actually a great guy.

so, stop being someone who's silly and shallow to degrade MJ because you dont know how much he contribute to this world.

that's all for my sharing today.

bye :)

SCHOOL SUCKS!

2009-07-06T18:07:00.003+08:00

hey guys
i cant believe that our weekends just went by like that. we needa go back to school tomorrow.
the vicious cycle starts again. gah.
anyway, i went out with Beverly today! im so happy cos we havent been chatting and today we finally had the chance to talk :)

as for now, im trying to write a 3 page biology report on the powerpoint presentation that Voon Jin did. its seriously boring. i needa write a freaking 3 page report on enzymes?! enzymes! for god's sake, is just freaking boring.
i still have a ton of a maths homework to do but im not feeling guility for not doing it.
i will feel guility for not doing homework but not for A maths.
A maths is just a redundant subject. it just want students to kills time and brain cells.
plus, if you have a A maths teacher like mine, you will probably just feel like dying.
my teacher assumes that everyone in my class is a genius and when he teaches one topic once, we will understand. great. what a nice teacher huh?
dont bother asking him to explain again cos he will just repeat whatever he had just said to you again. you will just leave with a confused mind again.
never mind about A maths :)

supposedly, today is a very special day.
but it had not been a special day since years ago. i felt bad for forgetting this very special day because im too engross with my homework and outings lately.
my mum wasnt too happy bout it. oops!
this is the first time i forgot about it so i will treat it as a lesson.
i promise i will remember this day for the rest of my life :)

its 0612pm now and im left with 3hours17mins to do my homework.
GREAT. i gotta go now.
bye!

PS: i did not get to buy MJ's dvd today! awwww :(

MY WEEKENDS!

2009-07-06T00:53:00.004+08:00

hey guys
so i have been having a great time since friday :)
anyway, for those who are so outdated, Pamela's back!
Jessica, Voon jin, Xinyi, Guo jian and me went to meet her at causeway point on friday.
her accent is coool. she hasnt changed much, she's still that friendly girl-next-door :)
we had a fast-food resataurant marathon.
we went to mos burger to chill out then to Macdonal for some fries and lastly went to Ya Kun cos voon jin suggested it.
we are going to catch a movie next week anyway, im anticipating that :D
sorry, there's no photos cos we were too busy cactching up with one another's lives.
next time, photos are a must :)

Hmm, as for yesterday, i had a family dinner at King George and Dragon Cafe.
well, its a well known western cafe in JB.
and yes, its really pricey and i paid about one-third of the bill as a present for my mum's birthday. haha.
so,B and I are planning to go there for high tea :)
i cant wait to eat their scones!
oooh, i even had red wine! its a sweet one though, not those really dry ones.
im almost drunk yesterday but im still conscious. haha.
cos we cant finish the whole bottle, so we bought it back home and now, im drinking it infront of the computer!
haha, please do not picture an emo 15 year old girl sitting infront of the computer frowing drinking red wine alright?
i just like the taste of it so i decided to secretly drink it since my mum's upstairs sleeping now. haha. i know its kinda illegal but a few sips wont kill right? *nods*
actually, there's pictures but im kinda lazy to upload it so maybe tomorrow? haha.

as for today, i finished my e maths holiday homework! WEEEEE ~
but my tons of logarithms practices are not even touch yet. *frowns*
seriously, i prefer e maths to a maths. i like e maths and hate a maths to the core.
now im trying to do my biology report while watching MJ's videos.
and obviously, im more interested in MJ's videos.
gahhhhh. King Of Pop MJ rocks!
my family is quite obsessed with him now. even my grandma. haha.
he's a legend :)
and im currently in love with this song - They Dont Care About Us
the MV for this song is nice too :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9mmjypW_hNw&feature=related (watch it!)

i gotta go now
bye :)

LAZY TO BLOG

2009-07-04T23:46:00.001+08:00

heys guys
actually, i do have a number of things to blog but im a little lazy to.
haha.
i will update tomorrow :)

BOTH FATHER AND SON ARE BASTARDS

2009-06-30T23:00:00.001+08:00

hey guys.
have you all heard of MJ accusation of molesting some child?
i think the first case was back at 1993.
That boy who was supposedly molested by MJ is Evan Chandler.
His dad Jordan Chandler sued MJ.
and guess what?
Evan Chandler admitted that he LIED.
he lied that MJ molested him because his darn father wanna him to.
what for? MONEY OF COURSE.
they were given $22million.
JERKS. ASSHOLES. BASTRADS. IDIOTS.
i hope someone can beat them up in america. make sure they are disfigured and they will need to have plastic surgery and were so traumatized that they need to have painkillers.
the link --> THE JERKS!
they admitted it when MJ died. wtf?
evan chandler said he was guility and decided to own up.
gah. assholes. can someone really just beat him up?!

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!

2009-06-29T19:38:00.003+08:00

hey guys
so how's your first day of school? i hope its not all about H1N1 cos' for me, the whole day is about H1N1.
there's no formal lesson today and Mr Soong just enjoy crapping to our class.
who cares about H1N1? erm, well unless there's extra holidays, everyone will be very interested in that, isn't it? haha
nothing interesting happened today. i was just crapping and bitching with my friends :D
I enjoyed that kind of laughter with my friends which seems to be absent from my life for about a month.
oh! there's one more thing - HOMEWORK!
it is kind of bothering me now cos i just realised that i have a ton of it undone. great huh?
im kind of lost now and i think im gonna to be in a deep trouble this week :(

anyway, i watched transformers last night! MEGAN FOX IS FREAKING HOT!
god, she's sexy, beautiful and she's definitely a sex symbol.
haha. i love optimus prime too :D
hmm, i think that's about it. i gotta go now.
bye :)

PS: Michael Jackson passed away on the 25th of June. awww, how sad can that be? although he's not that familiar to us(teens of our generation) but his songs are just lovely. it is certainly a lost that he died at the age of 50. He's ceratainly a legend, his dance and songs are just great! i was kinda sad when i heard the news cos i was still planning to attend his concert if he was to come to Asia but it seems that there's no chance anymore. Rest In Peace and you'll be missed MJ ♥

INJECTION :(

2009-06-24T18:47:00.003+08:00

hey guys
so i've been really negative these days huh?
i was quite shock to read my previous posts. haha.
i erm.. look a little silly huh? venting my anger in my blog.
so do forgive me anyway :)
im quite alright now so need not worrry:)

anyway, i know i always mentioned only B and THL in my blog.
but that doesnt mean i only see them as friends.
people misunderstood that i dont treat them as friends, well i kinda understand that maybe some of you may feel left out? (is that the word for it?lols)
so how should i explain it?
i mean, yes i do treat you all as friends(i assume that those who read my blog are my friends.) but there are some things that i cant share with y'all.
im not talking about those lovey-dovey boy girl relationships but some serious stuffs.
i needa some kind of trust for that.
B and thl are the only ones whom i really trust since we've known each other for at least erm.. 7 years?
im sure that y'all have your own trusted friends so i think most of you will understand :)

so, i went to the hospital today for an injection today.
actually it is for hepatitis B, but the doc says its redundant since i've that injection 5 years ago.
in the end, my mum decided to let me have the cervical cancer immunition jab.
it doesnt mean i will not get cervical cancer after having that injection but it just lower down the chances of me having it.
personally, i think all girls above 9 years old should have although it really hurts.
im not trying to exaggerate but it really do hurts.
its different from the injections i got before.
the worst thing is, i still have two more jabs to go :(
gahhhhhhh.

by the way, training was quite fun though it is still tough :)
i think i've enough of sharing.
bye :)

PS: freak those idiots who decided not to give us our extended holidays. IF there's a breakout of H1N1 within schools, then we will say to them nice job ;) and IF not a single school have a breakout of H1N1, we will still say to them freak you for not letting us enjoy ourselves for one mroe week!

DAMNIT.

2009-06-22T22:08:00.002+08:00

hey guys.
apparently, we are not getting our extended holidays.
THE BAD NEWS HERE
great, i was still hoping that i have an extra 7 days to do my damn homework cos i really cant be bothered about freaking homework right now.
im not in the damn mood to look at maths right now.
i may just shred my maths textbook into pieces.
i think that's the best way to vent your frustrations, to destroy something that you really hate.

so, its been days huh?
and duh, my problems were not solve yet. this is really taking a toll in my damn freaking life.
i cant carry on my daily normal life.
ya right, im not asking for any damn sympathy right now.
i just need to write. that's all.
*i think im gonna remove my tagboard for some freaking reasons.
wtf has gone over me man?
even i dont know. eveyone's seems to be moving on but im still.. im still here.
HERE. in the old spot, that i have left several years ago? why am i back there? damn.
GREAT. this is definitely not a very good timing when im having my june holidays.
maybe i should stop harping on it. yeah.. maybe i should.

let's move on.

I CANT CONCENTRATE

2009-06-19T22:48:00.002+08:00

hey guys
im so boring now that i dont know what to do.
i cant concentrate on my damn freaking homework at all.
my attention could only last for maybe 10 minutes and then i will turn to somewhere else and close the damn book.
B's at a dinner now while fat ass is off to somewhere else which make me have no one to talk to. damn.
i cant talk to anyone in my damn contact list.
im so freaking irritated now cos i dont know what can i do now.
i cant sms and talk on the phone cos i dont know who else can i talk to now.
i cant do my damn homework cos i cant concentrate and i dont know how to do my damn maths.
i dont wanna watch any damn movies/ dramas cos im not in the mood to do so.
see, i dont know what else can i do except to complain here now, in my damn blog.
cos of some problems im facing right now, im really irritated.
very irritated indeed.
i really wanted to ask someone: " what is the fucking problem do i have now?"
even i myself lost count of the things that im too irritated about.
fuck. fuck.fuck.

yeah, this is fucking irritating.
and oh, im fucking disgusted too by some fucking disgusting things.

The heart that dies away

2009-06-19T00:05:00.003+08:00

When
you were in buoyant spirits,
you smiles even at strangers,
you dance in the middle of a road,
you sing in the middle of the crowd,
you know,
there's this heart pounding in excitement for you.

When
your fortitude crumbles,
your faith lost,
your confidence defeated,
your heart shattered,
you know,
there's this heart that still beats for your every existence.

this heart,
distant yet you cant deny the closeness.
he will feel the pain when you are.
he will feel the euphoria when you did.
but where is he?
doubts about his existence,
doubts about his feelings,
doubts about his heart.

Questions linger in the mind.
yet, there's no answer.
if only, he's here.
no amount of tears could bring him here.
no intensity of longing could bring him here.
how could it be?

Tears of guilit and regrets drops,
drop by drop,
it tured into a stream like there's no ending.
battered and bruised his heart was,
he still care.
For you.

But, his heart refused to return.
Miserable must have filled his heart.
his stubborness does not give way.
he will forget eveything,
memories and
finally,
every inch of you.

By then,
you will accept fate
and let the heart,
once yours,
once that beats only for you,
once that ache beacuse of you,
to die away.

THAILAND TRIP!

2009-06-13T23:11:00.018+08:00

hey guys!
im back from thailand!
its sooooo fun :D
love to shop in thailand!
so now, PICTURES!

yep, i took this photos on the plane.
i love to sit by the plane window :D
i took these photos using my phone .
if you wanna take photos using your phone, for god's sake please put your phone in flight mode first. dont jeopardize the every one's lives on board. lols.
if your phone doesnt have flight mode then too bad, use a camera then :)
haha.
so those pictures up there are the aerial(is it call aerial? i've forgotten most of my geography photo skills) view of thailand.

ME :D

a 'tutu' cab. this was not taken by me of course. i found it in yahoo.com .
i did not get to take a photo of the tutu cab :(
i know that's dumb of me.

a view taken when im in the tutu cab.
the tutu cab is definitely one of the cutest and coolest vehicle in the world.
drivers of tutu cab doesnt really care about traffic rules.
they drive as if the whole road is theirs and when they made a U-turn, they can make you almost fly out of the vehicle.
and they drive real fast :D i like that. haha.
i even bought a colour splash photograph of tutu cabs :D

the hotel im staying in.
i like the hotel staffs. they are very friendly :)
most thailand people are friendly but some are just ignorant.
but rest assured, most of them are really nice and kind :)

the area of my hotel.
there'a alot of hawkers and there's night and morning markets which makes shopping easier for us :)

the floating market! very cool :D .
you get to buy food and stuffs while you are on the boat.
but be caution not to put your hand in the water cos sometimes there will be fishes that bite and duh, a crocodile. (i've seen one crocodile)
so, if you put your hand in the water and ta-da, your hand will be gone if you happened to meet Mr. Crocs. haha.

elephant rides :D
i know it seems rather cruel to ride on elephants to entertain ourselves but that's one of the attractions there.
plus, i gave the people 200 Baht to buy food for the elephant.
yes, im guility thus im willing to pay for a tiny fraction of the elephant's food.
lols.

so after that, we went to this really big temple.
there's about 7 temple within this place.
i dont know if its called a temple but everything there's about Buddhas so i called it a temple. LOLS.
anyway, the sleeping Buddha you see up there if really long, tall and big. (my vocab sucks)
its about the length of the entire hallway.

this last pic actually doesnt really have anything gotta do with the temple but i just find the clock nice :D
HAHA.

a shopping mall. well, most of the boutiques inside are high end boutiques.
another mall, Platinum, is much more affordable. plus, it has 1500 shops.
that shopping mall can really make you shop till you drop and of course, your wallet empty :)

traffic jams in thailand seems like a very common thing, i think they are also famous of it.
anyway, i found their roads really colourful, isnt it?
haha. my mum told me those pink colour cabs you see in the picture are for those gays and lesbians cos the boss of that cab company is a gay so there will be discounts for those homosexuals.
by the way, another famous thing in thailand is ah gua (sexually changed people?)
so let's not be bad and keep calling them ah gua, i'll call them SCP. (sexually changed people)
so there's really alot of them and the thing is they are really beautiful .
they have nice figure and beautiful looks.
duh, you cant really differentiate which one's a female or male in thailand cos they really do behave like a lady.
they are even more feminine than me and they will be very happy if you tell them that they are pretty. haha

oh, anyway, some boys in thailand are really hot and cute :D
some ladies there are really beautiful.
they are not handsome or pretty in the sense of those hooligan style but gentlemen and ladies.
plus, their school uniforms are actually nicer than us!
GOD. how can that be true man?
even thailand school uniform are nicer than us, duh, WRS ought to have some reflection about this.

we went to another temple, its called the Golden Mount Temple i think.
i cant really remember.
there's a couple flights of stairs for you to climb up.
if you do not exercise regularly, it will be damn tiring to climb up those stairs.
but the scenery up there is really beautiful.
the picture i took wasnt that good cos duh, my phone had only 2.0 mega pixel.

ME :D i look retarted in the photo huh?
i like the shades but i did not buy it cos its a little pricey. haha.
guess what's the brand? BATA . yep, bata.
dont look down on bata, god their shoes are quite pricey there and of course nicer.
it is located in the shopping mall whereby most of them are high end boutiques.

haha. this was taken at the thailand's airport.
well, their airport really surprised me cos all the shops in there are high end boutiques like Chanel, Gucci, Coach etc.

wee, i love this pic :D

i seriously love to take pictures of the plane window.
the day i came back to singapore, its very cloudy.
so i get to take pictures of fluffy white clouds :D
actually, i still have more pictures but its not with me.
i'll upload it if i have the chance to :)

gotta go now.
bye :)

A HOLIDAY TRIP TO BANGKOK

2009-06-08T23:30:00.002+08:00

im going to bangkok tomorrow till 13th of june :)
its time for a holiday.
its time for me to have a break.

i know y'all will miss me.
haha.
i'll try to update my blog if i can find a computer in bangkok.
but, i doubt i'll have time to use a computer cos i think i'll be too busy shopping.
lols. i'll miss y'all.

bye:)
take care :D

KUISHIN BO!

2009-06-07T23:44:00.005+08:00

hey guys
finally, i got out of the house today :D
i went to suntec city with my siblings.
well, i didnt buy anything but at least i got to walk around in a mall.
haha
we went to have our dinner at Kuishin Bo.
it is a japanese buffet restaurant.
it was rather fun to eat there cos there will be a bonus dish every half an hour.
and duh, only the first 20 people who queued up get to have that dish.
so my siblings will rush there when there's a bonus dish.
we dont really wanna to taste that dish but just took it for the fun out of it.
i shall go there with my besties next time :)

by the way, i have to go back to school for training tomorrow.
GAHHHHHHHH.
sickening idiotic cca.
the only thing that bothers me during holiday, other than homework is that damn freaking cca.
oh, homework, i havent started it.
great :)

well, bev's going to camp tomorrow which means i'll be real bored tomorrow.
and duh, fat ass thl have exams so he cant really keep me occupied.
plus, he will keep irritate me and we'll use the F words for the whole conversation again.
haha
oh, since he said im not being nice, fine. i'll be nice to him ONCE.
THL : GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR PAPER, FAT ASS.
oops. does calling him a fat ass a nice thing?
well, i think im already very kind to him. haha.

WEEEEE~ LOVES :D
haha, my younger brother is too busy eating to take a photo. LOLS.

gotta go now
bye :)
take care :D

LOVE THE ONE YOU'RE WITH

2009-06-06T22:32:00.003+08:00

If you can't forget the one that got away, can you.. love the one you're with?

-Emily Giffin

ANOTHER BORING DAY

2009-06-05T17:29:00.002+08:00

hey guys.

how have y'all been doing?

im soooooooooo bored.

today i went back to school to have my extra biology lesson.

and god, its damn freaking boring man.

after the stupid lesson, i slacked around with nicole, guojian and thl in school.

actually, im supposed to go to woodlands sports hall to have my badminton training but i just dont feel like going.

gahhhhhh.

nicole and me left when guojian's parents arrive for the meet the parents session.

nicole went home and i went to cck to look for bev :D

we went to subway and chatted :)

she gotta go bck to school at 2pm so i was left alone at lot 1.

how pathetic huh?

i cant go back to my sis's house cos there's no one at home so i shopped around the mall.

i bought something though :)

still, its kinda bored.

haha

and here i am after the boring shopping spree, typing on my sister's macbook.

seriously, macbook is coooooool :)

im chatting with thl on msn just now but he just went offline and went to sleep.

that fat ass :(

by the way, if you find this post boring, im so sorry.

you should expect a boring post when you see the title of the post.

haha.

seriously, i think im having a boring life now :(

anyway wanna spice up my life a little? haha

think i have nothing to share

bye :)

PS: my brother's coming tonight!

WEEEEEEEEE :D

BAKING COOKIES!

2009-05-31T23:18:00.003+08:00

hey guys
im feeling lethargic for almost the whole day even though i slept for about 8hrs yesterday night.
so i've been accompany beverly and her family to do their errands since im staying at their house.
haha.
and duh, my dear friend beverly decided to bake cookies today.
im not that kind of girl who will cook or bake.
so i was pretty reluctant to join her.
plus, i think i failed my practical home econ test so my baking skills aint that good.
one more thing is i dont like getting myself greasy.
haha.
i helped her out anyway, seeing i have no other choices.
the cookies we baked are not fantastic, it still have its flaws but at least it is edible.
this is the first time i baked without an adult's help.
so im pretty glad those cookies did not turn up to be a total flop :)
haha.

apart from baking cookies, i cant really remember what did i do today.
LOL. never mind, i dont think its of any importance.
OH! i havent started on my homework :(
oh my god.
i know its only the second day of holiday but duh, maybe my classmates have already finished at least half of it.
i cant really expect most of my classmates to be like me, not handing in homework on time.
its almost impossible so i needa get my homework done as soon as possible.
haha.

i dont think i have much to share with y'all today.
so night :D
bye :)

MY STUPID REPORT BOOK :(

2009-05-30T20:57:00.003+08:00

hey guys
how's the first day of holiday? chilling out huh?
haha.
anyway, let's talk about yesterday.
i received my report book.
and god, this is the first time i did so badly during my time in WRS.
guess my ranking?
class position : 30/44
wtf? my level ranking is 68!
oh my god.
my L1R5 is 19 !
how bad can it be huh?
seriously, i needa buck up and im using my june holidays to revise my work.
19 for L1R5 is just so pissing me off.
im so freaking angry at myself :(
i have 2As and the rest are B4 .
gahhhhhhhhhh. how can this happen to me?
well, i think there's nothing i can do bout it except to be more hardworking.
im going to stop harping on it.
BUT GOD 19 ?!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :(

fine. let bygones be bygones. forget it.
now, let's talk about my day.
im staying over at Beverly's house tonight :D
we went to city square to have another shopping spree today!
that's what a girl do when she scored badly for her exams.
lols.
we met up with THL.
and duh, i was shocked to see him FAT.
for the first time in 7 years that i see a fat THL.
haha.
and oh, he is sick. pathetic huh? haha
get well soon :D
we slacked around then went to eat some japanese snacks.
we were crapping, bitching and laughing.
lols.
after that, THL went to firstplace and bev and me loitered around and went back to bev's house.
nothing really special happen today so i cant share much with y'all .
i hope my holidays will be fun:D
i'll update more often i think since i have so much time now.
lols.

oh! i cant wait for my brother to come back :D
my sis and my brothers will be able to have a shopping spree and slacking around.
WEEEEEE !
my cousins will be coming back too. maybe we can have a karoke session again?
sad to say, my two joker cousins are not coming back :(
awwwww ..
never mind, they are coming back around nov/dec.
will be anticipating that :D

i think i have notthing much to share for today.
gotta go now
bye :)

PS: enjoy your holidays !

BYE COACH TAYLEN!

2009-05-23T12:47:00.002+08:00

hey guys.
my coach left the team yesterday :(
he's going to study accountancy in university so he decided to leave since he doesnt have time to train us anymore.
awwww..
now there's a coach kelvin coaching us. i hope he's good and by the way he is our 9th coach.
gahhhhh.
when cant we have a permanent coach like the boys' team? its freaking irritating to keep changing coaches.
im gonna miss coach taylen and coachie. why cant we have any one of them to be our coach?
duhhhhh.
on top of that, we still have a sickening cca teacher mr shah. boo to him! *hmph*

we bought a very big card for coach taylen !

all the best to coach taylen and he'll be missed! :D

okay, let me share my day with you all .
actually there's nothing special. i just slack around as usual.
even though i have a maths homework to finish, i seriously dont give a damn about it.
maybe i will do it tomorrow. yeah, maybe :)
and oh! my mum talked to me about my guy friends today.
and i find it really funny. haha. cos i think she doesnt really know what's going on in my life.
or maybe my school life? she's even talking about my husbands?!
lols. hello im just fifteen. plus, i dont even have a boyfriend.
he even talked to me about my very dear best guy friend which i find it really amusing and yes, im going to share it with him when he's free.
i'll let him know what kind of boy he is in a parent's point of view. haha!

im gotta go now.
bye :)

PRESENTS!

2009-05-19T19:30:00.004+08:00

heys guys!
i just receieved my almost 5-month late birthday presents from beverly and ruihong.
haha. i know its really very late but i love it!

that wow jazz disc! im listening to it now. it is great :)

these are call Macarons.
they are local snacks in France.
it is quite hard to find it singapore and a little pricey too.
but it is super tasty :D
sometimes it is worth it to just pamper yourself with such snacks i must say.
one of the best desserts i've ever tasted before.
thanks ruihong and beverly for the CD and thanks beverly for the Macarons de Canele.

i gotta go and enjoy my macarons now!
bye :)

PS:heys. i know i mentioned that i detest someone in my previous post.
well, its not exactly detest but you know just fed up and i think i needa time to cool down.
so stop being a paranoid. lols. if you havent done something that irritates me then need not fret out over it. haha.

SCHOOL IS BORING :(

2009-05-18T19:13:00.002+08:00

hey guys
how's school? mine sucks.
i was just slacking around in school and i dont even have the mood to joke around.
gah.
MT paper I and a maths paper were given back to us today.
i did not do exceptionally well but scored an average grade.
i'll post my overall grades when i received my report book.

B's is real busy .
she's busying watching her suave and rich men in Boys Over Flowers.
i know almost every girl are crazy over them now but duh, i havent watched it.
i know im slowwwwww like a laggard but still, argh.. never mind.
even though i like the male leads of the show(who doesnt?) but i find the show totally unrealistic.
it only drives young and innocent girls crazy and day dreaming that one day a handsome and rich boy will fall for her and she will live happily ever after.
ya right, suave and rich huh? hmmmm.. not bad.
*slaps,wake up WSY. stop dreaming*
oh great. that's the aftermath of watching such dramas.
okay, coming back to B.
thus, she's practically ignoring me. she replied my text really slowly and she's not online in msn or fb!
she ignored me cos of those rich cool boys in a damn tv?!
how dare she. LOL.
plus she doesnt have school tomorrow! tomorrow is her school's marking day.
and damnit, she's going shopping at orchard road with her mum and sis tomorrow.
oh god, tell me where's the justice?
as though i wasnt jealous enough, she told me that's she and her sis are going K tomorrow afternoon.
*SCREAMS!*
HOW GREAT CAN THAT BE HUH?
haha. never mind. im going to make her shop with me again. NO MATTER WHAT.

anyway, my SYF schoolmates went to the OBS today!
and im going to tell you all that im freaking jealous. haha.
i wanna go back to pulau ubin! that small but peaceful island.
how wonderful could that be?
it just brings back fond memories and i could leave this bustling city for maybe just awhile.
i could go back to that 'back to basics' lifestyle.
i think i should stop dwelling on this. it doesnt make my life better anyway.
haha.

OH!
i just rememeber that i wanna share a book with you all. a very nice one :)
The Valkyries by Paulo Coelho
a very nice book and maybe inspiring one? i dont know which adjective should i use for this book.
i simply love the poem inside this book.
i shall quote it for you all :
And each man kills the thing he loves,
By all let this be heard,
Some do it with a bitter look,
Some with a flattering word,
The coward does it with a kiss,
The brave man with a sword.

nice right?
this book is not that kind of freaking thick books that look more like a dictionary than a book.
its worth it to take a look :)

i think that's the end of my sharing for today.
i gotta go now.
bye :)

PS: i just realised today that i'd spent a little too much money on shopping. shit.

PPS: im starting to detest HIM and i wish he could just stay away from me for a period of time.damn.
(B you know who im talking about right? i know im bad but duh, nvm. will text ya again about it.)

FUN FUN FUN!

2009-05-16T21:52:00.005+08:00

hey guys !
my examinations offcially ended yesterday :D
i went out and played badminton with my badminton team mates cos' its Qiuxuan's birthday.
before that, we went to causeway point and bought a really soft toy dog for her.
and guess who i saw? eugene foo and cynthia!
haha. both of them are my primary school friends :)
i havent seen eugene for ages! i was so happy to see him again.
we chatted for about half an hour and they went to catch a movie.
i met up with voonjin and chongyun and walked to woodlans sports hall.
i had a nice time with my badminton team mates.
it seemed like its a long time since we played badminton together.
after that, i went home and had a good night sleep :)

i was quite excited today cos beverly and i had planned to go to city square for a shopping spree during our exams.
both of us really anticpate this day to come.
we reached city square at around 1pm and met up with thl to have our lunch at kenny rogers.
the three of us were practically crapping when we were eating.
after the lunch, thl went to first place and beverly and me continued our shopping spree.
thl came back to meet us cos he found out that he had no companion in first place.
haha. so he just walked around the mall with us.
we were tired after shopping, we had beancurds and chatted until 5pm.
beverly kept talking and talking and talking that thl and me are going crazy.
then, we went to first place cos beverly wanna meet Thomas for some reasons.
i met nicole! haha. crapped and chatted with her, love her lots :)
we went home around 6.30pm.
had a very nice day :)
BFF :D

im soooooo happy that exams are over cos i get to chill out with my friends again!
im going to :
1. have karaoke sessions with MH
2.watch angels&demons with thl and wcy or bev
3.another shopping spree in sg with bev
4.watch gossip girl
5.watch ANTM cycle 12
6.watch Boys over flowers
7.sleepover at sis's house :)
8.sleepover at beverly's house and have a movie marathon

haha. im anticipating all of them.
oooh,i gotta go now.
bye :)

PS: im going to brush up my vocab soon and my english so do pardon my lousy sentence structure lately cos i was a little lazy to phrase in a better structure haha.

ITS THE LAST DAY!

2009-05-14T18:54:00.001+08:00

hey guys!
i know that my last few post seemed a little negative huh?
haha. sorry for that.
after tomorrow, i think i'll be alright until the day i received my report book.
lols. i dont think i dare to open up my report book when i received it.
so all the best to all who are having their last paper tomorrow:D !

I SHALL LOVE MYSELF

2009-05-13T18:19:00.004+08:00

i'm surrounded by people and i realised,
im lost in the crowds.
Im lost cos i dont know who am i, where am i.
those temptations, those motives out there.
i resist from following them
i resist from walking in other's people shadow.
i want to be myself.
just me.
pretty or ugly.
sweet or mean.
short or tall.
fat or thin.
clever or stupid.
popular or unpopular.
that's me.

okay, i know you must be wondering why this sudden post?
so,i've been feeling down.
not that kind of emotional breakdown of course but just a little unhappy cos of exams.
i realised that i've been comparing myself to others almost all the time.
i also realised that i always wish that im someone else.
i think its time for me to accept myself.
lols. you must think im crazy.
yeah, im just that unpredictable and queer.
gah, i need to overcome this barrier of mine.
cos its really taking a toll on me.
i will try my best :)
i shall love the way i am :)

anyway, im having e maths paper 2 tomorrow.
i dont even have the mood to open my maths textbook and look at the formulas.
i think im gonna do badly for my MYE.
very badly indeed.
so i reckon that it doesnt really matter if i do badly for another two papers.
there's not much difference huh?
i know this is not the right way of thinking but everytime i take out my books, i will think why bother?
:(

the only good thing that happened to me today is i had lunch with my best guy friend and my best girl friend :D
we ate lunch at SDS and chatted for almost 2-3hours.
haha. had a very nice time with them cos i can talk to them without the need to keep any secrets to myself.
i complained to them how sucky is my paper and gossip with them of course.
hahas. not that kind of those bitchy gossips of course.
just some stupid gossips to entertain ourselves.
BFF ♥

i gotta have my dinner now.
bye :)